Twenty something

Another birthday come and gone.

Felt like any other day to be honest but the knowledge of my age is daunting. Things to think about, things to do. What will happen in this unwritten chapter of my life?

I want

Send me back to 2008 please..

Still

Still not feeling great. First night shift completed, some sleep today and now getting ready for shift number 2. 9pm til 8am should do it. I find that when it hits the early hours of 7/8 I get more hyper.. then crash so I feel its best to get home as soon as I can when I'm done to sleep. Just feels like I'm missing the whole day.

Listening to All American Rejects.. 'Can't take it'. I'm liking the lyrics

Don't feel too good

:( slight cold and feeling miserable today. Still no cigarettes though which is positive I suppose.
constant headaches and an overall confusion.
Getting the feeling that some people are not talking to me for some reason.. or at least not saying things to my face. And finally.. a feeling that something is going to go horribly wrong soon :s which I hope it doesn't! Just one of those looming feelings :(
I shall see how I feel tomorrow and update if different

Feeling better

Slightly better and more concentration on work at the moment. Which is a good thing surely. Plus I have not had a single cigarette today! Lots of coffee though :s Wonder if I can last through tomorrow as well..

Other news.. Induction day 1 complete! The team look good and there is definite potential there. Still more tomorrow though and then 2 weeks of cleaning, stocking and training the staff for store open in November. Happy days.

Not hungry

I haven't eaten in 2 days. I'm still awake due to the Pro Plus I took as a makeshift anti-depressant. Does. Not. Work. You can kind of guess I'm not happy at the moment and am venting through here..

The songs

Still bring a tear to my eye

Iamjustso

Bored.com

Why?

Just.. why? I should stop. But I cant! It's so hard!! :(

How old?

How old Am I?? Im nearly 25 and I'm sitting in the dark wearing a Batman T-shirt and fuzzy wolf slippers making a tower of empty beer cans :s

July - I gots the job!!!

Startin ma new job on the 11th :)

Now an Assistant Manager earning a LOT more than what I'm on now! Cannot wait for the first paycheck.. oh the Topman suits I could buy, and the alcohol to be consumed, the hard work and mass of learning to do! Fun times ahead.

Numero Three

Third Interview process on saturday! Going to to another store nearby to do a store walk with the Area Manager and talk about store running. New shirt, borrowed suit, confident me :)

fingers crossed again

Is there..

such a thing as a year or two off work with all bills and taxes paid for? Houdini had the right idea in creating a disappearing act..

W00p

Interview this morning went well (I hope!) Took 2 hours and was told that I'll probably be put through to the next round of interviews. Good times ahead? Fingers crossed.

Step 1 complete

Just had a telephone interview for a better job role :D I think it went pretty well, next step is the first actual interview involving competency tests and a SWAT analysis of one of their stores. Fingers crossed! Preparation is key.

oh..

Good luck today btw.

What was I expecting?

Waiting and waiting for any hint of realisation. Yet nothing. Maybe it wasn't me, or maybe it was but it shouldn't have been. Still.. hard to forget.

Can't Have It All

Crazy about each other
we both have fucked up pasts
but when we are together
we have a fucking blast

Bleh

Still feeling bleh.

You know why.. :(

Zombie